Nobody knows

Does your heart beat,

As constant as the ticking of time,

As hard as the Big Bertha,

Nobody knows

Though through our eyes,

We see lies more than lights,

Yet still craving for the sweetness of a fable,

While destroying our pride

Most traits are skin deep,

For later it penetrates deeper,

Leaving judgement to the imaginary,

Acting shrewd as if it was reality

With all these postulation,

Out of treacherous gospels,

Which is the verity,

Nobody knows

-F.Hisham

How can two

very different things often foreseen by people as the same thing? Talking and communicating. These two things are very very different yet people tend to treat them as the same thing. Why? Oh wait, let me narrow it down into 2 questions. Why do people tend to see it as the same thing, and why does these two differs so much?

For these questions, the answer is, people tend to communicate nowadays via talking. Although in this era, text messaging and emailing seems the more likely way people use to communicate, talking is still one of the most efficient way of communicating. But why? Because when you talk, you create expression, voice tones and gestures. In other words, talking is just a way of communicating, same goes to gestures. Communication is the end product.

Why is this so important? Why is this guy blabbering about something very general? Why is this guy fat? I don't have the answer for the last question but for the first question, it's quite simple. Communication is a two way interaction. If you're talking about cars, per say, does it mean that the person listening understands? What makes you so sure that he/she understands? Just because you use a language that person knows, doesn't mean they understand. Makes more sense right? But here's the twist.

What pushes me to bring my blog out of hiatus is because, lately, there has been a lot of miscommunication happening around me. I kept wondering, how did that happen? What hit me like a truck was that we were all talking in a language that both of the receiving end understands. So where did I go wrong?

Communicating is a skill. which has to be developed. It doesn't come easy like your main language. Don't take communication for granted. A beat on the chest can mean you're angry like King Kong. A nod of the head means you agree or yes. A rub on the belly can tell people that you're full. These, my readers, is a form of successful communication.

Now you know what I'm trying to send to all of you. So next time when you try to deliver a message, make sure it is delivered. Make sure they understand. Make sure, you're not only talking, text messaging, emailing, tweeting nor chatting but you are communicating.

It is a

never ending quest if you ask me. What is? Life I mean. Specifically in terms of choosing something. Before I continue this post and lose you guys half way, let me just let you in my little quote to give you guys an idea of what this post is gonna be about.

Ironic how security only brings insecurity

 Have you guys ever wonder that we spend most of our times looking for something but because we want something so specific that we ended up with nothing? Yeah that's what I thought. Let me give you an example. I  used to work in Machines Sdn Bhd in Sunway Pyramid, earning RM8 per hour. I stopped working there around August in 2011 and I've spent 5 months looking for a better job. I want something secure, in this case, money. Now I'm in a dead end part time job in Pacific Coffee Company in Sunway Pyramid earning RM5 per hour. Amazingly, I'm loving it.

My dad once asked me when he saw the guards in my housing area. "Why are these guys here? If they are around, is there a guarantee that no robbery will happen here?" and it made me think. Of course not. But what can we do to prevent cases like that? We can hire a personal guard. But will that guarantee it? No? So we get a better lock for our houses. But will that guarantee it? No? So when will it end? I'll tell you when it ends. When we stop trying, and start living.

We can't worry about the same thing over and over again. Girls can't find a partner that is secure in terms of money, because there will always be a guy who has more money. Guys can't find a partner that is secure in terms of looks, cause there will always be a prettier girl. If you see a couple, did you ever think that the guy found the perfect girl or settles for her flaws? Live life people. By the minute. By the second. Don't waste your life on choosing and start settling for something.

PS: I got haters asking me why I write my blog like I'm some kind of psychologist or motivational speaker when I'm only taking diploma in Psychology. Because, in this blog, I am a psychologist. Live with it.

Espresso shots shots

shots. That's all I have been doing for the past month. Pulling shots at work. And to be honest, it's driving me nuts. Since I'm up and running still, and I'm bored with games (for a while), i thought maybe i should do some self disclosure.

You know how I always give advise and do's and don'ts in my blog, well let me tell you something about myself. I have trouble listening to advise. BOOM! I KNOW RIGHT! hahaha.

I always ask for advise from people but i have trouble following them. My younger brother called me just now and wanted my point of view on something. He said he couldn't take negative comments, no matter how true it is. He doesn't want to lose. And when i think about it, so am i!

But let me tell you guys another thing about me. I love to listen. I love to know how other perceives on a certain subject or matter. It interests me how advance a human brain can work and coming up with a certain point of view. Yes, I know that if you ASSUME, you're only gonna make an ASS out of U and ME.  But it's so interesting. Don't you guys think so?

One simple example. Turning the TV on before sleeping. Try creating a reason based on this action. That person may want to hear people talking before he can sleep or he's scared of the dark or he wants to dream about the show he's watching before he goes to sleep. There are thousands of possibilities. And all of it can be true.

So you see, even though i find it hard to follow people's advise, I still love to listen to them. Because I believe that the one thing that makes us special is the way we see things. And people, you are all special.

Now that I'm

back from a very long hiatus, I wanna share what I've been doing besides studying. Oh and also besides playing League of Legends. haha

 I've been making song covers. I know it sounds cheesy but let me tell you why I'm doing this. Besides from trying to test out my voice, I want to build up my self esteem. I don't know if you all notice but I'm a very shy guy. I couldn't do public speaking. On my first performance in MRSM, my voice didn't come out. I was playing "Time of your life" by Greenday but sadly no voice. hahahaha.

 Now, I can do presentations without stuttering, i can sing out in the open even though i sound like a frog with no vocal cords, and i can even perform on stage. Come on, I'm sure the idea of doing a cover crossed your minds once at least. Do it. It's fun!

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